BOMBED IT (N)

Hey all !
Back from that interview. I definitely bombed it! There was this questionnaire form that was basically like you SAT / Exam testing. Just for an interview?

To make it more exciting I paid almost 20$ for the cab. It was 17$ but HST really raped the use of a cab. It was on expensive interview for a job I probably won't get. So after that I decided to walk the way back. It was a long walk! And I had to pee so bad! I walked about 45 mins before I decided " ok, time to find a bus stop! ". Well , after another 15-20minutes I found one! AND THEN waited about 30 more minutes for the bus to come. By that time I had to pee so bad and needed a drink badly! Even with a DQ right beside the bus stop I didn't risk on missing the bus because I was about to pass out from the heat and no water ( I forgot to throw some in my purse ). Then when I did get home I had 4 flights of stairs to conquer. Finally making it and opening the door waiting for that ice cold breeze to hit my face, I remembered opening the door the A/c was off....

I won't lie. My math skills are a bit rusty but not horrible. In high school I got good marks in math. Had 80s at one point. But not being in class and not doing it for so long I've lost that skill and then given me math that I didn't expect throws me off, makes me anxious, and forget how to do it all together.

They always tell you in school that these are skills you will need for everyday living. Well school system let me tell you something different!

Like I said , in school I was getting 70s-80s and then after not doing math for perhaps 2years, I have completely forgotten how to divide, multiply, and worst of all algebra. And   that was my favorite kind of math. Not using the math taught in school everyday has caused me to forget it all in general. It doesn't help that my memory is shit to begin with but not using it everyday doesn't help either.

Maybe I will start doing online sheets and such being as I'm not working now as is anyways. Or perhaps I can find a store that sells practice books.

It's not just my horrible math skills that make me think I didn't get the job, but how honest I was and nervous I forget situations I was in when they ask things like " Have you ever had any conflict with customers or employees, if so, what did you do ? " I have tons of different situations I've been in but can never remember when I'm put on the spot like that. Then they ask " Where do you see yourself in five years ? " I reply " Finished high school and into beauty school. " Yeah, that answer is perfect when you apply for a factory job! Or then there's this " Why do you want to work here? " I reply " Well, I need to pay bills , so I'm handing out resumes where ever I can to bring in some kind of income ".

When I know I'm being judged, I get really nervous. I cannot look people in the eye for a long period of time and I get this nervous itch where I scratch at my arm(s) until they are red and raw. It happens when I feel frustrated or do something I shouldn't have. Any other time I'm confronted like with customers or supervisors day to day, but when it comes to being judged by someone important I get too nervous.

I'm still really hoping to get back into a job / career where I can interact with people on a daily basis. It just makes the day so much better and goes by faster. You meet so many new people and get to know them on a regular day to day routine. Plus I love putting a smile on someone's face, even if it's just a simple smile or laugh as i ring their items through or direct them where they need to be.

Any who bloggers, I'm off to nap and maybe clean.
Let's hope I find something I really like.

Take care all, and may good luck come your way :)