Having a Bad Day!

Hello again,
Here I am again. I blog to much, but that's okay it keeps me busy and distracted from house work.
Today I'm having such a bad day. Why? I'm not sure . But I feel really anxious and nervous and just a whole lot of different emotions. I hate it ! I hate it ! I hate it! WHY can't I just feel normal? And then of course you get your people that want to know whats wrong, but you just can't tell them because you don't know how to put it into words so the get all pissy at you because you don't want to talk about it, or talk at all?

People just don't understand that sometimes it's hard to get this feeling out. And that sometimes, you don't want to explain because you don't feel they will support how you feel or because maybe it's something to do with how you feel about the person that asks. It's just so hard to find where to begin. Plus, I'm not really wanting to tell people because I don't want to be told how I should feel or what I should feel. I also don't want to be told what to do! I just want someone to listen without freaking out, getting pissed off, and without cutting me off.  

I don't know, it's just hard to explain and try to tell people.

Anyways, lately I've developed this weird numbing pain in my left legs. It's a cold numbness. ITS DRIVING ME NUTS!  But it's probably because I've been sitting on my but for the last two days.

Ah well, I'm going to stop writing it's making me more anxious.

Take care. ! 

Well, the past few days the weather has been windy and cold, but sunny at the same time. Hopefully you guys can enjoy these photos today!
I know the last one is how I feel right now. I'm happy but upset. Just like the warm sun and the cold dark clouds.

Take care all, may good luck come your way.