Self Healing.

Good Morning All, 

Lately I have not been feeling myself at all. And when this happens I usually "self heal". And by this I mean something completely legal and stress relieving. When this get tough and I feel like giving up or just completely shut out every time, I will find something to pierce or tattoo. 

This weekend I was suppose to get a new tattoo, and while for once out of the million times my tattoo artist (who is a close friend of mine) has promised to come give me a new one he actually showed up this time, Every other time he always bails. And while he finally showed up, I unfortunately was extremely busy. I had to go out with my mom, I had my sister's big weekend for her birthday, and my house a total disaster !!  I told him I would try and find some time in between. And go figure when I did ... he waited to late t call me over. So sadly I missed that chance. But I guess I'm just going to have to suck it up and go to an actual shop and start trusting someone else with my tattoos. 

Giving the picture you can see that I have my lips done. I have had these done for a few years now I just ended up losing them at a party one night and never bothered to put them back in. Since I never ended p getting my tattoo and I really was in need of some healing, I decided I would put my lip rings back in. Although they are not really all that new, it was still a bit painful, well really I guess more numbing to put them back in which helped me relieve a bit of stress and anxiety. 

In total right now I have 1 tattoo and 5 piercings. My ears I had done when I was 6 months old. I am now almost 21 and they are still open and I rarely wear earrings. Although I am starting to wear  them a bit more. 

Each one of my piercings has a story or reason as to why I got it. To me, that moment of pain from the needle passing through my skin, drawing across it, just makes me forget everything for that moment. It helps me relieve stress, depression, anxiety, sadness, whatever I may be feeling at the time. So to me this is self healing much better than drugs and alcohol. Although I've been down this route too. Like I sad every one has a story as to why I got it done. Even though they were some bad memories and having that piercing is technically holding on to that memory, each one of my tattoos and piercings reminds me of the things I have over come. 

If both my grandfathers seen the tattoos and piercings I had now, I can tell you exactly what they would say. 

" If God wanted you to have holes in your body and drawings on your skin he would have put them there himself!"

I always thought that saying was so weird. Could you imagine if we were born with the tattoos we get over time, or the piercings we get. 

But, I could imagine my grandfathers who are now passed knew my reasoning, would understand. 

Let's go  little into the reasons I got them. 

EARS - my mom wanted me to have them done

TOUNGE - I was 16 and at this time it was just the start of my depression, so I was dealing with a lot that someone my age should never have too. It was also a birthday gift from my mom on my 16th.

RIGHT LIP - I believe at this time I was still struggling with depression badly. 

BELLY BUTTON - At this time , still dealing with depression and going through a relationship that was starting to sour. 

SNAKE BITES - After I think my one lip ring fell out, I had let it heal over. I then decided to get both lips done. At this time I was starting into pot and heavy drinking. ANd not just drinking for fun, although I did drink with my girlfriend it was still a bad time. 

TATTOO - at this time, the relationship was over and I was, yes, still struggling with depression badly. 

RE-PIERCED SNAKE BITES - Again, after losing both at a party, which was bad times, I just re-did them last night to help deal with the crap I still deal with.

So as you can see there is a common issue to each. Depression. And I am still trying to find some time to write that blog. The pain that is caused by each helps me over come things slowly without drugs, alcohol, and medication (which doesn't work anyway). 

Some people may thing, "you'll regret that later". But to be honest, I don't think I ever will. In fact, some people already think I will regret my tattoo because it is on my right wrist and it's of Hello Kitty with 5 stars. (as you can see in the photo below). I won't regret this tattoo because it helped me get over some stuff and it represents a part of who I am. 

HELLO KITTY - is something I love, why, I don't know I just have obsession with it and I love it,

STARS - represent my family. 

But this I all for now,  am hungry time to get food!! 

Take care, and enjoy!