Self Healing.

Good Morning All, 

Lately I have not been feeling myself at all. And when this happens I usually "self heal". And by this I mean something completely legal and stress relieving. When this get tough and I feel like giving up or just completely shut out every time, I will find something to pierce or tattoo. 

This weekend I was suppose to get a new tattoo, and while for once out of the million times my tattoo artist (who is a close friend of mine) has promised to come give me a new one he actually showed up this time, Every other time he always bails. And while he finally showed up, I unfortunately was extremely busy. I had to go out with my mom, I had my sister's big weekend for her birthday, and my house a total disaster !!  I told him I would try and find some time in between. And go figure when I did ... he waited to late t call me over. So sadly I missed that chance. But I guess I'm just going to have to suck it up and go to an actual shop and start trusting someone else with my tattoos. 

Giving the picture you can see that I have my lips done. I have had these done for a few years now I just ended up losing them at a party one night and never bothered to put them back in. Since I never ended p getting my tattoo and I really was in need of some healing, I decided I would put my lip rings back in. Although they are not really all that new, it was still a bit painful, well really I guess more numbing to put them back in which helped me relieve a bit of stress and anxiety. 

In total right now I have 1 tattoo and 5 piercings. My ears I had done when I was 6 months old. I am now almost 21 and they are still open and I rarely wear earrings. Although I am starting to wear  them a bit more. 

Each one of my piercings has a story or reason as to why I got it. To me, that moment of pain from the needle passing through my skin, drawing across it, just makes me forget everything for that moment. It helps me relieve stress, depression, anxiety, sadness, whatever I may be feeling at the time. So to me this is self healing much better than drugs and alcohol. Although I've been down this route too. Like I sad every one has a story as to why I got it done. Even though they were some bad memories and having that piercing is technically holding on to that memory, each one of my tattoos and piercings reminds me of the things I have over come. 

If both my grandfathers seen the tattoos and piercings I had now, I can tell you exactly what they would say. 

" If God wanted you to have holes in your body and drawings on your skin he would have put them there himself!"

I always thought that saying was so weird. Could you imagine if we were born with the tattoos we get over time, or the piercings we get. 

But, I could imagine my grandfathers who are now passed knew my reasoning, would understand. 

Let's go  little into the reasons I got them. 

EARS - my mom wanted me to have them done

TOUNGE - I was 16 and at this time it was just the start of my depression, so I was dealing with a lot that someone my age should never have too. It was also a birthday gift from my mom on my 16th.

RIGHT LIP - I believe at this time I was still struggling with depression badly. 

BELLY BUTTON - At this time , still dealing with depression and going through a relationship that was starting to sour. 

SNAKE BITES - After I think my one lip ring fell out, I had let it heal over. I then decided to get both lips done. At this time I was starting into pot and heavy drinking. ANd not just drinking for fun, although I did drink with my girlfriend it was still a bad time. 

TATTOO - at this time, the relationship was over and I was, yes, still struggling with depression badly. 

RE-PIERCED SNAKE BITES - Again, after losing both at a party, which was bad times, I just re-did them last night to help deal with the crap I still deal with.

So as you can see there is a common issue to each. Depression. And I am still trying to find some time to write that blog. The pain that is caused by each helps me over come things slowly without drugs, alcohol, and medication (which doesn't work anyway). 

Some people may thing, "you'll regret that later". But to be honest, I don't think I ever will. In fact, some people already think I will regret my tattoo because it is on my right wrist and it's of Hello Kitty with 5 stars. (as you can see in the photo below). I won't regret this tattoo because it helped me get over some stuff and it represents a part of who I am. 

HELLO KITTY - is something I love, why, I don't know I just have obsession with it and I love it,

STARS - represent my family. 

But this I all for now,  am hungry time to get food!! 

Take care, and enjoy!

Pumpcakes ! :)

Good Morning All!
Today is Friday, and being as Monday is Halloween our class decided that today we would do our little pot luck being as we have the same teacher all day today, where as Monday we have two teachers.

And yes, I dressed back up as my spider queen except this time, just the make up part.

Last night I baked up some chocolate chip oatmeal pumpcakes! A combo of pumpkin faces on a cupcake  . As you can see I decided to get a little creative and give them faces.
The mustache I made because of my sister. Let me give you the background to that one!HA. When we were kids we would get those dollar store head phones that had the little black felt covers on them. Always, we took them off our head phones, put them on our fingers, and then drew little french faces and would play around with them. Who knows why or where we came up with it, but that's what we always did haha. I also did a wink face, your typical pumpkin face with some missing teeth, an angry faces, a chubby face, and then just some other random faces. My only issue is that the little cups that I baked them in decided that they would stick to the pumpcakes.

I actually went to the Bulk Barn and bought some icing with the tips. This has caused a new obsession for me. Baking and then decorating them! I love food and I love being creative, so why not throw my love for the two together and come up with some cute stuff.

If I am not mistaken, one girl in our class who I am friends with, her sister made us a smartie cake. I am pretty excited to see what it looks like although I seen it on facebook last night. Of course I can't wait to see what others brought as well as eat some pizza. YUM! We et to watch movies and carve pumpkins as well too!

Oh, did I forget to mention that we are College Students? haha. Well half college students anyway. I love halloween and I think it's because it brings out the kid in all of us despite our age. It's a time where you can take your kids out to get pumpkins and costume shopping, or baking even!

You know, I can remember when I was about maybe 7 or so. My dad had got us a pumpkin from the grocery store that day because they we like 99cents. When we brought it home he handed us a sheet of stickers and told us to go nuts, haha. He probably did it this way so that he didn't have to clean up any mess and then we could just always change his face later. Now that I think of it, how lazy of him! HAHA.

Any ways, aside from school and Halloween stuff I am also, hopefully getting a new tattoo today. An old friend of mine who did my first tattoo is suppose to be coming down today. I will be honest, I'm not holding my breathe because hehas said this to me a few times before and never followed through. But, regardless I am so excited to see him because so much has happened since he was last here. It'll just be nice to catch up with someone who I was really close with. As well as get some new ink, it's about time that I self heal since all this non sense has happened. Ink and piercings are my way to get through hard times in my life instead of using drugs. Am I scared? Yes a bit, but he is he only person who I trust with a needle on my body. BUt, I am so undecided on what to get !! I have a few stars that my sister had drawn up that I thought were so cool but I also want kitty's name with a little paw and heart.

Perhaps I will get my two class mates that I hang with to help me decided, or maybe my sister, or maybe Ill just do what I did the first time with the hello kitty & star tattoo and just wing it on the spot. I am so excited to get my ink done, and not even that, I am just so excited to see my old friend.

I would just like to note that I was at school at 750AM and it is now 830AM, I am the only one here!! Where is everyone? probably decided since today is a laid back it's a day to sleep in just a little. Oh well, it gives me some time to rite without loosing my focus. Although ... I'm rather hungry and the cafe isn't open just yet I don't think.

It is so hard to itch my face with all of this make-up on. My spiders keep falling off my face! Good thing I brought  my glue and extra spiders haha.

If I am not mistaken, today we have the girl coming back from the OLC to finish teaching us about Gambling. I am rather excited because I have learned so many neat things from her first visit. Read my previous blog from when she was here the first time because I doubt most of you knew any of what she told us!! Myself, I have never been to the Casino. I don't really ever plan too. Although I may go once with my mom and my sister now that she is of age!! Make it kind of like a girls night, and go with my gram and auntie and cousin too. It would be fun.

Yesterday I started up my cleaning blog. I post in it very Thursday for sure, and then probably in between if I ever get some time too. Check out my profile to find it. ( click my picture on the right to find it!! )

Well, for now since all I am doing is rambling.

Take Care All!
ANd MAy Good Luck Come Your Way/