Yet another ...

Good Morning...
So as you can see I have another new piercing and this one is actually new.
Sitting in class yesterday one of my classmates who I'm somewhat close too said she wanted to get her nose pierced and I had seen on Facebook that day that a local tattoo shop was having 50% off nose piercings ahah.
After school we met up later in the day and went and got them done together.

I was such a big baby. If you read my last post then you know I have a lot of piercings and one single tattoo that should be changing soon (ahha, maybe if kevin let me). Every one I have I always freaked out so bad , and psyched myself out only for it not to hurt in the end. Then I feel dumb.

Like last night. I went first, and I freaked out ahah . She put the clamp on my nose and then I started really freaking out. I guess before we got there I was more nervous than anything. So I sat there for like 5 minutes taking a deep breathe and joking around with the piercer, which helped me calm down a bit knowing she was fun, and had patients to wait that long to put a needle in my nose. So after freaking out, I finally gave her the go ahead.

As she put the needle through, I squeezed my girlfriend's arm and grunted to get through it. As I grunted a tattooer stopped to ask " Is someone having a baby over there?" and I replied " yea, twins actually ". I love going into a tattoo shop that's friendly and open with their customers.

But, my firend may already have to take her ring out because she has to get her wisdom teeth out, which you have to take out the nose stud for some odd reason.

But this is all for now, too lazy to finish this post aha

Changing.

Today is nothing exciting. This morning I changed my lip rings from silver to black, although I like my silver lip rings, I like black more. Especially when I do my make-up. 

Speaking of make-up, for once in a long time other than Halloween I wore lipstick. YIKES. I never wear it manly because I never knew how to use it the right way. But I am slowly starting to learn how to. It's pretty much that colour pink. Just a little less intense. 

The whole reason I never wore lipstick is because I have really bad chapped lips all the time,  but I noticed that when I have my rings in I lick and bite my lips a lot less than when they are in. So I am able to wear lip stick without it fading and looking chalky and chipped.  I'm hppy I can wear lipsticks and glosses because I love make-up. 

Currently I am in class on a break. But after this I am heading to the beauty school in my city to check it out and see what it's like! I'm really nervous, but I'm also excited at the same time. I can't believe that I will be an actual adult moving towards the rest of my life doing something I love. I cannot believe that! I can remember sitting in my grade 1 class struggling with learning to count money and in my grade 3 class struggling with my grade 3 learning test. Yet, here I am moving on to a career!! 

That to me is completely crazy! 

Recently I just bought the LMFAO - Sorry For Party Rocking. I have a huge obsession with RedFoo right now! And I can see it will last. I know all the lyrics to every song off their first album and I'm almost to the point of knowing all the lyrics to the songs on this album. I even follow him on instagram!! Gosh I Love him! It would be the absolute biggest of my dreams to meet him !! Although I would be just as grateful to meet SkyBlu as well! :) . 

To be honest, I have LOVED like LOVED LMFAO since their first song came out! And I was obsessed with RedFoo then, but then this year when "Sexy and I know it" came out with a music video and he was basically naked ... I was inlove! Yes, I am engaged, but it's okay to have this kind of crush love because it would never happen. And I'm okay with that obviously because I love my fiance, but it would kill me if I was to ever meet RedFoo. SkyBlu as well :) 

But this is all I really have to say for today. 

Take Care All, and ma good luck come your way as always !! 

  

Self Healing.

Good Morning All, 

Lately I have not been feeling myself at all. And when this happens I usually "self heal". And by this I mean something completely legal and stress relieving. When this get tough and I feel like giving up or just completely shut out every time, I will find something to pierce or tattoo. 

This weekend I was suppose to get a new tattoo, and while for once out of the million times my tattoo artist (who is a close friend of mine) has promised to come give me a new one he actually showed up this time, Every other time he always bails. And while he finally showed up, I unfortunately was extremely busy. I had to go out with my mom, I had my sister's big weekend for her birthday, and my house a total disaster !!  I told him I would try and find some time in between. And go figure when I did ... he waited to late t call me over. So sadly I missed that chance. But I guess I'm just going to have to suck it up and go to an actual shop and start trusting someone else with my tattoos. 

Giving the picture you can see that I have my lips done. I have had these done for a few years now I just ended up losing them at a party one night and never bothered to put them back in. Since I never ended p getting my tattoo and I really was in need of some healing, I decided I would put my lip rings back in. Although they are not really all that new, it was still a bit painful, well really I guess more numbing to put them back in which helped me relieve a bit of stress and anxiety. 

In total right now I have 1 tattoo and 5 piercings. My ears I had done when I was 6 months old. I am now almost 21 and they are still open and I rarely wear earrings. Although I am starting to wear  them a bit more. 

Each one of my piercings has a story or reason as to why I got it. To me, that moment of pain from the needle passing through my skin, drawing across it, just makes me forget everything for that moment. It helps me relieve stress, depression, anxiety, sadness, whatever I may be feeling at the time. So to me this is self healing much better than drugs and alcohol. Although I've been down this route too. Like I sad every one has a story as to why I got it done. Even though they were some bad memories and having that piercing is technically holding on to that memory, each one of my tattoos and piercings reminds me of the things I have over come. 

If both my grandfathers seen the tattoos and piercings I had now, I can tell you exactly what they would say. 

" If God wanted you to have holes in your body and drawings on your skin he would have put them there himself!"

I always thought that saying was so weird. Could you imagine if we were born with the tattoos we get over time, or the piercings we get. 

But, I could imagine my grandfathers who are now passed knew my reasoning, would understand. 

Let's go  little into the reasons I got them. 

EARS - my mom wanted me to have them done

TOUNGE - I was 16 and at this time it was just the start of my depression, so I was dealing with a lot that someone my age should never have too. It was also a birthday gift from my mom on my 16th.

RIGHT LIP - I believe at this time I was still struggling with depression badly. 

BELLY BUTTON - At this time , still dealing with depression and going through a relationship that was starting to sour. 

SNAKE BITES - After I think my one lip ring fell out, I had let it heal over. I then decided to get both lips done. At this time I was starting into pot and heavy drinking. ANd not just drinking for fun, although I did drink with my girlfriend it was still a bad time. 

TATTOO - at this time, the relationship was over and I was, yes, still struggling with depression badly. 

RE-PIERCED SNAKE BITES - Again, after losing both at a party, which was bad times, I just re-did them last night to help deal with the crap I still deal with.

So as you can see there is a common issue to each. Depression. And I am still trying to find some time to write that blog. The pain that is caused by each helps me over come things slowly without drugs, alcohol, and medication (which doesn't work anyway). 

Some people may thing, "you'll regret that later". But to be honest, I don't think I ever will. In fact, some people already think I will regret my tattoo because it is on my right wrist and it's of Hello Kitty with 5 stars. (as you can see in the photo below). I won't regret this tattoo because it helped me get over some stuff and it represents a part of who I am. 

HELLO KITTY - is something I love, why, I don't know I just have obsession with it and I love it,

STARS - represent my family. 

But this I all for now,  am hungry time to get food!! 

Take care, and enjoy!